I am Amelia (also known as x P A N T S x on gaiaonline). I am 21 years old and I asked Alli to start this blog with me.... well, just because I was bored and needed something to do xD The picture I have posted is a couple years old, but is still the most accurate picture of me to date (minus the flower). As of right now, I'm sitting on the college campus typing this up for you guys to read. I wrote a splurge last night and it details what I look like and what my mental status is. Yes, I have mental disabilities. Who doesn't nowadays?
Here's my splurge:
My life as a book? Well, that would be a really short book. Mostly because I can’t remember much of my childhood. The things I remember are the things I’ve seen from home movies or the most painful things. That’s where my life began as far I can remember….pain. I was abused by my biological father. Sexually, mentally, physically, verbally. You name it, he did it. I’ve blocked most of it out, but I still suffer from PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder). I also have Schizoaffective disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), and something else I can’t remember the name of. When I think of it, I’ll add it. Just look up those mental diseases (yes, they are diseases) and look at the depressive side of each one. That’s what I have to deal with each and every single day of my life. I also have a few other milder health problems to deal with: diabetes and arthritis of the ankles to name the most prominent of them. (Arthritis of the ankles? Such an odd place to get arthritis, in my opinion.) I am less than sixty inches tall (That’s five feet for you who don’t want to do math.) and weight close to two-hundred-thirty pounds. I am size AWESOME (as my mom likes to say). I also get mistaken for a teenager a lot. Like a fifteen/sixteen year old teenager. And I’m twenty-one. People say that’s a good thing. It’s better to look younger than look older because you’ll age more gracefully and youthfully. Well, that’s what my mom thinks. Anyways... I have brown hair and green-ish eyes with a hazel ring around the pupil. My most distinguishing feature....hm…. I would have to say that is either my eyes or the chicken pox scar on my forehead (it looks like I took a pen cap and pushed it against my forehead). I wear glasses. My current ones are a faded purple (I’ve had them for years) but my new ones that I’m getting are gold and slightly more round. I am a pessimist through and through.
Okay. That was my self reflection/splurge. Kind of long, isn't it? Well, that's me. When I get bored I rant on and on and on about whatever's on my mind. Usually, that's whatever's going on in my world. I'll post more later. TTYL Guys! Can't wait to hear from you. - Amelia/Pants
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